I feel like shit.

I don't know why. But, I feel terrible now. When I think deeply, I got the answer...

I have a lot of things going on in my head right now. If I were me three years back, I wouldn't give a damn about anything/everything.

What's on my mind? Glad you asked. Here's a list.

The college.
I love the college. But I only love it as a student. Not as a President or anything. I just want to be a normal student like I used to be.

The orientation.
Like I said, I love the college. Just as a student. So, me joining the orientation? Thanks. But no thanks. If I can help, I'd help. But my mind screwed everything up. I can't handle this kind of pressure. As a president, I can't do it. As a student, that depends.

The college people.
When I said the college people, this includes my friends, lecturers, staffs, etc.. About my friends, I care about them. Do they care about me? I don't know. I wanted to help on the orientation, but they seem a bit unhappy about it. So, should I help? Nope. About the staffs, I think, they're going to look at me as an irresponsible leader. Yes. I admit that. I told one of the staffs that I hated working with people who happen to be my friends. I wanted to step down to secure the friendship. They wouldn't let me. So, who's at fault here? 'You' hate the 'blame culture' but 'you' can blame me? Shit. All I've got since I won the presidential election are all bullshits. (Maybe, I gave some bullshits too.) Although we did send our students to join some events, but.... The Student Council members were not there! So, I'm sorry friends. I can't be a good leader, but I can absolutely be a good friend.

My life.
I won't give up my life easily without trying. Even I was not trying hard, at least I tried. I gave it a shot. And I am (hardly) living my life right now. I have a lot to face. Work. The Student Council shit. My studies. My fitness. Almost everything I have to keep up with. Physically, you might see the Happy Me. But mentally, I'm slowly fading into the sub-conscience part of me. Sometimes, I feel like putting myself to sleep for eternity but lucky enough for me, the 'conscience' part of me has more strength of will.

These four things that are running through my mind are just some of the things that I have to think about. I still have to think what's under the hood in the future.

Where am I going?
What's my purpose of living?
What am I going to be?

My results are almost out. Another thing to worry about. I'm targeting a 3.0-ish CGPA. I hope I can get it. After that, my financial status. How am I going to pay my tuition fees without any financial aid? MARA. You guys are my only hope. If not, I would have to turn to other solutions (if any).... Finally, TOEFL. It's coming. In exactly 58 days 7 hours -and counting, from now.

"Wish I had a six-round revolver with a bullet in it. If I am lucky, the single bullet will meet the back of my head."

-Iamf.

A7X Live at Long Beach Arena.

I bought their DVD a couple of weeks ago.

Well, what can you expect from this Hard Rock/Hardcore band?

A lot!

M. Shadows' vocals ===> Super Fantastic!

Synyster Gates' guitar riffs/solos ===> AWESOME!!!!

Zacky Vengeance's guitar riffs ===> Splendid!

Johny Christ's bass lines ===> Just WOW!

The Rev's drums/vocals ===> Fucking blew my mind!!

Gates and Vengeance's duet guitar solos ===> Awesomely awesome fucking awesome fantastic super duper gile babi.

The thing about this band, their guitar solos are not as crazy as Dream Theater, Metallica, or Dragonforce... But the sound that they created are so amazing. The band totally blasted my mind.

Another thing:

How can a person sings while playing a double paddle drum set while keeping the beat consistent????

The Rev can.

Iamf.

I love chicken so much.

Today at lunch, I ate two pieces of fried chicken which I bought from Jusco. Then at dinner, chicken stew.

Yesterday at dinner, I ate a plate of chicken chop.

On Friday, I ate Nasi Lemak with fried chicken for dinner. (My mom's a great cook btw. Who's mom isn't?)

On Thursday, I ate Nasi Lemak with chicken which I bought from Jusco.

On Wednesday, Chicken McDeluxe for lunch. For dinner, my mom cooked roasted chicken. I ate half of it.

On Tuesday, a home-made chicken chop with garlic mushroom gravy.

I can't remember what I had on Monday. I hope it's not chicken.

My chicken consumption is too much.

But I can't stop eating chicken. It's just the best. (I haven't tried raw chicken though.) ;]

From now on, I declare myself as: Chickaholic, Shit. What kind of name is that? Lame.....!

=]

Iamf.

Help!!!

As the title says "Help!!". I need help. About my hair. My hair is hurting my eyes. It's too long.

Should I cut it?

Ooorr....

I should not?

Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not? Should? Should not?

@_@ :S

Oh my..

I dunno... really...

Iamf.

Have you tried this?

It's a bit stupid but sometimes, when you have nothing to do, it's kinda fun.

Ok, try this.

Turn on your radio.

Tune in to any of your favorite station. (Say, hitz.fm)

Listen to the song that's on air. (Say, America's Suitehearts)

Following me so far?

Good.

Before you proceed to the next step, just say in your heart/mind what are you wishing for. (Say, a girl)

The next step is to tune in to another station. (Say, fly.fm)

If the current song that's playing on fly.fm is the same as hitz.fm, (in this case, America's Suitehearts) your wish will most probably come true.

This is some kind of self-motivation and to keep yourself optimistic.

Some people called it the power of the Law of Attraction.

However, do not rely on this too much. Trust yourself. Trust God. Trust luck.

=]

Iamf.

Random stuffs 3.

I got a text message from the 'one-i-aDmire'.

She suddenly asked "Are you still working?"

I smiled to myself like a bitch.

But then, she didn't reply back after the second text message.

I wonder why... huh....

"Those feelings, they're yesterday's feelings, and they'll all be lost in time"

I hope not.

Iamf.

This blog.

God. I have not update this blog for three fucking days. I hate it. I promised myself I wanted to keep this blog updated.... but hell... I haz fail... for the... ermm... third time i guess?

Booooooooo...!

Haih..

Never mind.. I will keep trying.

Iamf.

Stuffs at work 1.

What happened just now: I sold three iPod Nano(s); I ate Nasi Lemak with chicken.

Seven hours to go and I will be home! Yeay.

Cool?



Iamf.

Blink-182 Summer Tour.

Oh my God. Blink-182 are going to perform along Weezer and Fall Out Boy.

According to Ultimate-Guitar, "Blink-182’s Mark Hoppus has officially confirmed that the band will not only be touring this summer with Weezer but they will also be bringing along Fall Out Boy." They also add, "Unfortunately for fans of both opening acts, you’ll only be able to see one of them depending on which show you attend."

I wish I could go there by Summer... But,, oh well.. too bad...

The cheapest ticket: $20
The most expensive: $60

Dates for the shows are yet to be confirmed...

Visit himynameismark.com for updates and info.

Blink Forever!

Iamf.

THE weekend.

One of the most awesome weekends ever.

Saturday.
I watched football at home (after the plan has been cancelled). Manchester United 0 - 0 Arsenal. After the game, Manchester United won the 18th title. Congrats. But I still hate them. =p

After the game, I went out with my usual friends for a jam session. Songs list: Exo-politics, Supermassive Black Hole, Dammit, Not Now, You Better Pray, Adam's Song, Dumpweed, This Suffering, and Surrender.

Then, we went to Asia Cafe (again?!). Foosball. Pool. Red Bull. and.......... "Drumroll" Three plates of the best, the most splendid Fried Oyster Mushroom ever. Ever!!



-Fried Oyster Mushroom at Asia Cafe.

After that, my friends drop me at my home at 0513 hours.
Now I feel very sleepy. Goodnight.

^.^

Iamf.

Random stuffs 2.

Have you ever heard of a game called Guitar Hero? Here's what the developers are up to:

Cowbell Hero.

Triangle Hero.

Hiro Hero.

Flute Hero.

......

Nah. I'm kidding. Those 'Hero' games do not exist at all. Not even close. They are just some funny and cheesy ideas of Engadget's readers. Lol.

By the way, they posted a link to a game called: Heroin Hero. Nice!

Iamf.

What's on my mind 2.

I just want to see her. I miss her a lot. She's not my girlfriend. Just a girl that I have a crush on. =]

Lame. "or casual?" -Ted Mosby.

A coincidence: "I Miss You - Blink-182" is currently playing on my iTunes.

Don't waste your time on me, you're already, the voice inside my head.

Iamf.

Moment of frustration.

Few days back, I asked 'someone' out to watch this weekend's football match.

I was so excited.

Because she agreed.

Maybe I was too excited.

Because she changed her mind at 1900 hours May 15. 24 hours before the match.

Right now.

I am frustrated.

I just hope I won't be frustrated by another Arsenal lost.

Oh, well.

=X

Iamf.

Random stuffs 1.

Just got back from Asia Cafe. It's half past four in the freaking morning. Thought of updating my Twitter, but I better go on and update this blog. What I did: played a few rounds of pool, a few games of foosball, and had supper with Asy and Jo.

Asy and I talked about cars the whole time. Damn.

Me: (Talking to Asy) "Satria Neo... blah blah.... 180 km per hour... blah blah... Rims... blah blah... White... et cetera, et cetera... "

Jo: "..."

Asy: "Yeah. Cool. Superb. I want to make my Neo to look like this..." (While showing a picture of a Satria Neo to me and Jo)

Jo: "..."

Jo: "......."

Jo: [-.-''']

Mmmm.... No comment...

=S

Iamf.

What's on my mind 1.

Currently, I am thinking... How can I get easy money without doing anything bad?

I don't think there is any way to get fast-cash (in a good way) except by entering contests/competitions.

At the moment, I need at least RM510 to pay 19 of my friends. It's not debt or anything but, I 'accidentally' used their payment from the Bio-Nik television series which they (and me) acted as extras in it.
Sorry guys and girls. I will pay. I promise. As soon as I get the money.

I know. I am a jackass. But I am still awesome.

Please God, help me.

[-.-"]

Iamf.

Just added 1: "My Top Ten List".

Yeah. The list can go on and on but I have created my personal "Ten things I can not live without".

Give a round of applause to Mr. Internet who won the number one spot. In these modern days, who can live without Internet? Anyone? That's right. Imagine the world without Internet.

*Information about the world events are not well distributed to the... well, the world. Thus, making diseases such as Swine Flu spread to other parts of the world without any information about the H1N1. Swine zombies? Cool. (not well distributed: because we still have television and radio)

*No Facebook, no Myspace, no blogs, no emails, no online games, no YM, no MSN, no ______. (Just fill in the blank with anything you feel appropriate.) Hmmm....

Argh. I can not imagine myself just watching the idiot box. Damn.

Hail the Internet!!!!!

Iamf.

Friday. Fryday. Flyday. It's F-day. =]

My alarm buzzed off at 8.30 am this morning. I snoozed it a few times until it got pretty annoying. Finally, I woke up at 9.00 am. The first thing I did was reading my text message which I received from Dayana. Then, I took my bath, had breakfast, and suited-up. Yep. I suited-up as I have to attend an appointment with Mr. Arif from the Ministry of Education. The appointment went very well. 12.30 p.m., Me & a friend of mine went and visit an old friend of ours at UniTen. We had lunch. After that - the mosque.

Now I am at the college. Too bored and tired. Oh, I have to do some work.

:-l

Iamf.

My friends' craziness.

-JB road trip.

On my final day of exam, my best buds went to JB to fetch Lily (bukan nama sebenar). I was not there. I repeat. I was NOT there.

The picture was edited by Robin (bukan nama sebenar).

Thanks guys!

Iamf.

H.I.M.Y.M. 04.23

Oookay. The title does not describe much about what am I writing. What I am trying to say here is, I have just finished watching How I Met Your Mother (thus, explains the H.I.M.Y.M) episode twenty-three from the fourth season - which is also the latest episode. In this episode; Barney was jailed; Ted met Stella; Lily appeared at the of the show after she went missing for two or three episodes because of Barney's joke.

The best: Barney's life is basically porn with better lighting.

"Accep___!" Fill in the blank with Mosby's first name.

Oh yeah, I watched it while I was working. Cool eh?

=p

Iamf.

Work. Boredom. Blog.

I decided to create this blog just now. This is because I'm stuck at work, with nothing to do. B -O -R -E and -D are written all over my face. Luckily, there is this thing called the Internet and Blogger.com. I hope I can keep this blog updated. I will post any relevant issues and things that are happening (or happened) in my life.

=D

Iamf.